Thursday, November 29, 2012

pink + tosca = never fail!

Hijab: KikyMizanie | Inner: Unbranded | BoxyTop: unbranded | Pants: Colorbox|
Bracelets: Pull&Bear| Bag: Cambridge Satchel Bag | Shoes: Tory Burch

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

a worry free mom

i don't think there are such thing....a worry free mom, i mean.
or maybe there is... i don't know.

for me, i've always feel worry about Sarah.

when i was pregnant with her, i was worried that i didn't give her enough nutrition eventho i take my vitamins eat healthy foods and milk religiously.
I was worried that my baby will got disease or not normal because of my fault.
even after 4D USG that clearly shows how well Sarah doing inside my belly, i'm still worried.

when i was about to gave birth thru C-Sec, i'm getting worse, i'm so worried that my blood pressure went 130 while i'm actually tend to low blood pressure (100 is top).
i was worried that if thing gone wrong and sumthin happened with my baby, how am i gonna live without my baby whom i love long before she came?
I was worried sumthin bad will happened to me, i don't want my baby have to lose her mother and have to live without me to take care of her.

When she savely delivered, next worry is will i be a good mother for her. have i done it right in taking care of the new baby? what if i done sumthing wrong and harm her?
what if i forget something that caused her a disease?
what if she got a delayed on her growing? i monitored the growing chart religiously. it's not that i want a genious baby...just normal will be fine but i know i will never ever forgive myself if it is caused by my lack of awareness.

as she grow older my worry changed but it didn't go less than before.

i'm scared that someone will kidnaped her, i'm scared that she'll got injured while playing, i'm scared that she'll taken away from me....

i'm scared.

eventho it sounds ridiculous to scared too much...but believe me, a mother can feel me.

hahhh....i have to take a breath now.

this is exactly why i hate criminal, accident or nature disaster news, it flourish my paranoia.

Ya Allah, please take care of my baby in everything she do. Please guide her to be a good moslem. Please keep her safe, healthy and happy.

taken this morning... she loves drawing and writing evenmore since school.
she said: "gabar pukupuku (kupu2)

Sunday, November 11, 2012

Sarah first day in school

Last tuesday, 6 November 2012 is Sarah's first day in school.
we finally picked JAC School in Kelapa Gading as her playgroup. we like the curiculum, the school ambiance, the teachers and the location is good.

Sarah, of course very happy with her school, she enjoy playing, studying and have new friends. no separation anxiety, only on friday she cries a bit but that's because she's a bit sleepy.
but 5 minutes later she's okay and happy again.'s the pictures of her first day

Sarah in her classroom. she was happily picking up toys and play with friend and her teacher

after school, we took her to kids saloon to get haircut. as you can see, she's having a great time with her snacks :D's the haircut result hihihi....beautiful baby girl

and here's her homework last week. she has to color the crescent moon yellow and trace her name 4 times (2nd page)

to get her doing her homework is not as easy as i thought, seeing her doing great in school (she got the highest mark for behaviour and lecturer, means she a good student and keep up with lessons) i thought she'll be happy go lucky doing her homework
but i was wrong....
at first she refuse to do it and ask fot TV -_-
finally i turned of the TV and took away all her toys so she won't distracted.
even so, i still have to divide the home work into two phase.
first, coloring....
two, tracing her name...

but it finally finished...yay.
maybe she just not get used of routine yet, but overall she's doing good and we are very proud of her.

Sarah, if one day you've grown up and read this, just remember how much we love you and hope the best for you.

love...mama & papa