Kiky Mizanie: 2012

Sunday, December 2, 2012

last weekend

Last weekend me & hubby went to Jakarta Fashion Market 2012 in FX, then we watch "Posession" in Platinum FX.

casual date but always special.... ^^

checking out Muse101

my man

taken by hubby, i looove how it shows my eyeliner yay...

whooshh

my favorite items at the moment. mean, i wear them almost everyday :p (boriiiing)

bracelets from Pull & Bear

Cambridge Satchel bag

Thursday, November 29, 2012

pink + tosca = never fail!

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

i don't think there are such thing....a worry free mom, i mean.
or maybe there is... i don't know.

for me, i've always feel worry about Sarah.

when i was pregnant with her, i was worried that i didn't give her enough nutrition eventho i take my vitamins eat healthy foods and milk religiously.
I was worried that my baby will got disease or not normal because of my fault.
even after 4D USG that clearly shows how well Sarah doing inside my belly, i'm still worried.

when i was about to gave birth thru C-Sec, i'm getting worse, i'm so worried that my blood pressure went 130 while i'm actually tend to low blood pressure (100 is top).
i was worried that if thing gone wrong and sumthin happened with my baby, how am i gonna live without my baby whom i love long before she came?
I was worried sumthin bad will happened to me, i don't want my baby have to lose her mother and have to live without me to take care of her.

When she savely delivered, Alhamdulillah...my next worry is will i be a good mother for her. have i done it right in taking care of the new baby? what if i done sumthing wrong and harm her?
what if i forget something that caused her a disease?
what if she got a delayed on her growing? i monitored the growing chart religiously. it's not that i want a genious baby...just normal will be fine but i know i will never ever forgive myself if it is caused by my lack of awareness.

as she grow older my worry changed but it didn't go less than before.

i'm scared that someone will kidnaped her, i'm scared that she'll got injured while playing, i'm scared that she'll taken away from me....

i'm scared.

eventho it sounds ridiculous to scared too much...but believe me, a mother can feel me.

hahhh....i have to take a breath now.

this is exactly why i hate criminal, accident or nature disaster news, it flourish my paranoia.

Ya Allah, please take care of my baby in everything she do. Please guide her to be a good moslem. Please keep her safe, healthy and happy.
Amien.

taken this morning... she loves drawing and writing evenmore since school.
she said: "gabar pukupuku (kupu2)
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Sunday, November 11, 2012

Sarah first day in school

Last tuesday, 6 November 2012 is Sarah's first day in school.
we finally picked JAC School in Kelapa Gading as her playgroup. we like the curiculum, the school ambiance, the teachers and the location is good.

Sarah, of course very happy with her school, she enjoy playing, studying and have new friends. no separation anxiety, only on friday she cries a bit but that's because she's a bit sleepy.
but 5 minutes later she's okay and happy again.

anyway...here's the pictures of her first day

Sarah in her classroom. she was happily picking up toys and play with friend and her teacher

after school, we took her to kids saloon to get haircut. as you can see, she's having a great time with her snacks :D

Tadaaa....here's the haircut result hihihi....beautiful baby girl

and here's her homework last week. she has to color the crescent moon yellow and trace her name 4 times (2nd page)

to get her doing her homework is not as easy as i thought, seeing her doing great in school (she got the highest mark for behaviour and lecturer, means she a good student and keep up with lessons) i thought she'll be happy go lucky doing her homework
but i was wrong....
at first she refuse to do it and ask fot TV -_-
finally i turned of the TV and took away all her toys so she won't distracted.
even so, i still have to divide the home work into two phase.
first, coloring....
two, tracing her name...

but it finally finished...yay.
maybe she just not get used of routine yet, but overall she's doing good and we are very proud of her.

Sarah, if one day you've grown up and read this, just remember how much we love you and hope the best for you.

love...mama & papa

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

green green

This photo was taken this morning before work. and am happy to announce that my weight is 55,5kg now. Yay!

such a good number rite? 555. but i still wish to reach my weight goal which is 50-51kg anytime soon.

the pants that i'm wearing is size 6 US, but it's already too big for me. i'm a size 4 now or 28/29 for pants.

my shirt size is S. eventho the scale doesn't change much but the size shows how i lost much.

am so happy and feel so fit.

updates...updates

some people were asking about my progress with fashion design.

just to be clear, i didn't put it off. eventho i haven't execute my plan for the clothing line just yet. i just kinda delayed it.

why?

because it takes total effort (both money & energy), spend most of my time, and need full attention.

and for now, all my money, energy, time and attention goes to

SARAH.

i don't want to miss a bit of her baby & toddler time. it's enough that i lost 8 hours of her life everyday at work.

so for now, the fashion line thing will have to wait.

but.

fashion is my daily mumbling, so fashion is in my everyday i just take it from different side.

side that doesn't collide with my SARAH.